feet first.
shuffling to the door.
so tenderly. so carefully. so gently.
smile second.
carefully placed on a long-ago face.
i introduce myself and you graciously let me enter.
not knowing what to do with the hot meal i brought.
put it away, i suppose.
with the other things that you’ve forgotten.
Continue reading “the visit”fatal. that is our relationship.
gone before it even started.
I’m so sorry.
the friendship we could have had…
that never will be.
because. Fatal.
russian, bettas, homeschooling…
hobbies, similarities which won’t be spoken of.
because. Fatal.
gone. tumbling in the intersection.
lives touched. affected. shattered.
even before ours crossed.
because. Fatal.
I’m so sorry.
For Natalja
smileyhappysarah, 10 Dec 2021
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smileyhappysarah, 8-2-21
the feelings flooding through me
carry me on waves.
seas rising and falling
lifting me up and then drowning me… Continue reading “Untitled”
there was nagging on the rooftop
angry chirps and twitters erupted
from next door. Continue reading “Late Nights”
Your Peace fills me, comforts me, warms me.
No one has ever made me feel the way I do…
like You have.
Your Words are lifeblood to me, Continue reading “You.”
I turned 17 today for the second time in my life.
the fear and shame oppressing every cell in my body…
once again sitting with you.
prodded on by a “did you tell him your plans?” Continue reading “Trust Fall”
Today is your birthday.
Again.
365 days have passed since the last one…
so many of those filled with thoughts of you…memories…laughs…reflections. Continue reading “Birthday Memorial”
the tears threaten to surface.
surrounded by people and yet I am the only one here.
watching your fingers fly from black to white has sharpened my senses… Continue reading “Library Beethoven”
thoughts and ramblings 