it’s here

standing on a precipice.

just over the edge…

i see it. i smell it. i feel it.

the crispness of a fresh apple,

once separated after biting…

He Blessed me

cradled by Loving Arms

He blessed me.

the smell of love and heaven upon Him

He blessed me.

safe in His Embrace

sheltered from the world around me

He blessed me.

the visit

feet first.

shuffling to the door.

so tenderly. so carefully. so gently.

smile second.

carefully placed on a long-ago face.

i introduce myself and you graciously let me enter.

not knowing what to do with the hot meal i brought.

put it away, i suppose.

with the other things that you’ve forgotten.

Because.

fatal. that is our relationship.

gone before it even started.

I’m so sorry.

the friendship we could have had…

that never will be.

because. Fatal.

russian, bettas, homeschooling…

hobbies, similarities which won’t be spoken of.

because. Fatal.

gone. tumbling in the intersection.

lives touched. affected. shattered.

even before ours crossed.

because. Fatal.

I’m so sorry.

For Natalja

smileyhappysarah, 10 Dec 2021

In All Things

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smileyhappysarah, 8-2-21

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the feelings flooding through me

carry me on waves.

seas rising and falling

lifting me up and then drowning me…

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I crushed you

under my foot.

as I moved, you moved…

Late Nights

there was nagging on the rooftop

angry chirps and twitters erupted

from next door.

You.

Your Peace fills me, comforts me, warms me.

No one has ever made me feel the way I do…

like You have.

Your Words are lifeblood to me,

Trust Fall

I turned 17 today for the second time in my life.

the fear and shame oppressing every cell in my body…

once again sitting with you.

prodded on by a “did you tell him your plans?”